I haven’t update my journal for months already. Everything is going well. I recently got another puppy named Luffy. The weather is getting cold so please take care and don’t get a cold.
One thing that has been on my mind for a long time now is I dwell on the past so much. Like I keep wishing I wish I did this or did that the outcome of my future would have been so much better.
Therefore, my new year resolution is complete all the goals I have and change my future. I mean I have trouble keeping up with the world sometimes. Is that a bad or good thing?
Anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Eve! What is your resolution?
Recently, I was able to apply to some UC and Cal State. I used my old grades though. But hopefully I will get in to one. If not, maybe next next year!
So far my life came out kind of disappointing. I wish I learned Japanese when I was little because I feel like I’m very behind. I mean I watch anime and read books, I should go out there and learn the language! This is why life lessons is that laziness is the worst trait one can have.
I tried learning Japanese when I was 11 years old but some life progressions stopped me. My name was Natsuki/Tran.
I try learning Chinese and Japanese now but it is too lateeee ahhh T_T lol
Now I’m just at home lounging around and waiting for good news. Recently, I do have some feelings of giving up in life.
So I have a goal of learning Japanese in order to read the unlimited amounts of Otome games and Visual Novels and some games.
People probably think I should learn Japanese and have a better goal than that. BUT I recognized.
Speaking of which, my American high school friends have all moved away. I think I’m the only one left here in my hometown. It’s so sad and empty going out to the street. I can’t believe how much changes in just a few years. I do not know why but where I live seems very alien-like now. Everything is very strange and different now. I kinda like it, but I do miss the peaceful days before.
Right now there are many changes that are happening around the world. Recently, I’m very pleased with myself that I was able to help out in anyway instead of thinking to myself I’m kinda useless.
My friends totally agree with me.
I do not like people copying me after I did something and then say “We/I don’t need you anymore.” and act all happy together excluding me and forgetting all about me. Why are there are so many copy cats?
I mean well that’s true but my feelings are very hurt and sad. I’m very heartbroken by it. ESPECIALLY If is a freaking GUY.
After the brand manager asked to model for their jewelries and benefits of being their ambassadors and Stanford University and they were calling me queen. So they are crescent.aelia and Belizza Desires Brand Managers.
Sniff I haven’t able to enjoy my face that long yet and this already happened. I just got it changed to and I was really happy.
And then ALL my money was taken after that right away.
Do you know how long have I been lying here waiting? 6 freaking years. People kept on saying that my future is good, but the more I go towards my future or time goes by, the worse it becomes. There were many guys that I liked in the past too and they had been waiting for me. In the end, they all gave up and left. I kept getting heart-broken for like four or five times already and I’m really tired of it. I really hate my life.Â